F-I-N-A-L-L-Y!

Hi guys!

Wow! Its been ages since I last wrote my blog! Hehe..forgive me. Of course I shall not and will not dwell on the past as there are really too many things to blog about. I think in the end I will suffocate by my own long winded stories. Hehe..

It must have been a shock especially for pau & ah hiao to know that I finally took up the initiative to BLOG. Oh yeah man…prolly ah hiao would just mentioned “omg, omg!”…typical of ah hiao! Hehe…

Btw, I have left desert villa. Its not really a desert villa as what I have termed it initially. OMG! Its more like a hell hole or. I really appreciated working with young people compared to working in a shit house, 90% mostly filled with old bitches & faggot. Pardon my language. Also, not to mentioned the owner of the desert villa is after all a NATO person. Bitches talked with no brains, no respect, and very childish and immature. I have never came across that these bitches really exist. Where is the simple courtesy of minding one’s Ps’ & Qs’??? Oh, please do not expect it in the hell hole which I have slaving for the past 6 months! And come to think about it, these bitches are already married with kids & some of them even have kids 20+ old!

Of course not to mention the faggot. He has the WORST character in him. Put on all airs with an insipid so-called faked British accent, giving others the impression that he’s really indispensable, scolding and shouting at one of his people who’s SLAVING under him and behaving horribly shitty to people that don’t kow tow to him! Put two & two together, you can imagined its more like a market place especially with the bitches talking in their loud voices. OMG! And I was practically declared “MUTE” while my tenure there. Sometimes I think if my patience wasn’t in good control, I might or could have prolly take the nearest available object and smash it into the faggot’s face or I could actually pour acid onto his face. My my…what evil thoughts I have. Hehe. Of course, I am also a NATO person, only in this scenario! Actually I really felt like a retard having put up all the crap and slaving in the desert villa. Well enough is enough. I don’t really wanna blog on that desert villa anymore. Nothing worth for me to crap on it anymore. Hang the bitches & faggot! Oh boy…I have never felt relieved and happy as today! Its really a good cause to celebrate….^_^

Another chapter has closed and ended and a new venture begins! YEAH!!!!
(Just see how my YOYO feels…ooo he feels just like me :) – as depicted by the pix…and a picture says a thousand word!)

Antique Shop

Gosh...I didn't realized for almost 2 weeks I didn't blog already. I don't think I can name the shoe house as "desert house" anymore. Its more like "antique shop"! Really...my goodness...70% of the ppl over there are probably antiques. The atmosphere is quiet. Thank god for partitions. Anyway, the place that I am sitting isn't a great view. I am literally sitting behind a darn pillar which has a bit of chunk falling off from, so whenever my chair was leaned against the pillar, it will leave white mark on my jacket which I hung on the chair. Bugger. I always have to go and flap my jacket to dust off that blardy white mark on it and sounded like a mad bird flapping its wings.

And after entering the antique shop, there are 2 ways to go into it. One is the normal entrance where everyone will take and the other one will be the entrance where ppl will pass by my place. And I wouldn't even know who is passing by because my back is facing whoever it is. Oh boy...hopefully the feng shui of my place is good. Gosh...I really gotta go dig into feng shui of my place already. I am actually scouring for a 8-legged dragon figurine to be put on my table. Errr...is it 8 legged? I can't really remembered. Must go double check it first. Well, apart from all that, I have a sorta curved "L" shape desk which I can start whether from L-R or R-L or middle. Hehe. Its big and comfy enough for me to happily mess up my desk. And I have a built in cabinet below the desk! Everyone of us has it. So I guessed the decor is not too bad. I'll post the pix next time...:)

Well, ppl there are literally so-called friendly. Either they put on a mask or they're genuine about it. As I mentioned earlier, 70% of them are in their 40s already. The balance 30% are between mid 20s to mid 30s. Gotten chummy with 3-4 aunties over there. OMG! Does it meant that I am gonna be an AUNTIE also? OMG! Hello! There aren't many young ppl there whereas in butcher's, I was surrounded by loads! And I do feel young! Hehe...uhhh over here, gosh! If I don't go mix with the youngsters, I think I will end up being a part of them and fade away...fade fade fade into misty clouds...ooo la la! Hahahaha! The aunties that I was chummy with are ok. The uncles are pretty reserved. I rather go out than stay there. I felt so suffocated. With the antiques and the silence. Thank goodness for msn & fb.

Wokay...gonna cut short although I have loads of crap to blog about. ^_^

Muaks muaks!

1st Day @ Desert House

Started my 1st day arriving on time, urm...5 mins late actually. Yalah. Stupid jam. I tried my best to be on time or earlier abit already. Then got a stupid policeman directing traffic when there are traffic lights! *Eyes rolling*.

Hmmm...I'll try keep my blog short this time but sure failed wan. Hehe. Coz I am so "cheong hei". Somemore today's blog I felt like using "Manglish". Get the kick out of it. Yeah! Haha! Well...nothing much to talk about in desert house. Except they temporarily put me in an "exposed" and "naked" place. Aiyah...that's the place near the gents and when ppl walk past, the first thing they see is me ah. Then can see whatever I am doing di lor. After a while, desert man came out and told me "Hmmm...I think u better sit there. Here everyone pass by also can see what ur doing. No privacy. Hmmm...Maybe u can clean up the place?", he smiled at me. Then of course I am happy lah. "Yeh...no need sit here di. Yeh...happy thoughts!".

Wah...fly also can rest inside my mouth lor when I went to the place opposite mine. Oh gosh! The place is so messy and the amount of rubbish in that place - paiseh. Anyway, to cut things short, I finally cleaned up the mess together with the help of a friendly makcik cum receptionist there. Haha. Then started to intro lah. To cut short again...everyone busy. Go out for appts. Then in, out, in out, all over the place. Hectic. Hmmm...that's what I called - the life of advertising...After that i waited till lunch time lor. During that moment, felt like dozing off di. So sleepy. Sumore so tired...Lunch time - bumped into Butcher's little helpers - end of story...kakakaka.

Oh time whizzed by so slowwwww....I really cannot tahan di, not on the first day or wat lah, but very sleepy and my eyes are hurting me. So I decided to ciao on time. Den hor, Ah Hiao msg me said raining heavily. Better I stay den get stuck in jam. Wahlau eh! Die lor if stay longer. Hai, I decided rather to get stuck in jam then get stuck in desert house. So I left praying that it won't rain so heavily. Thanked my lucky stars, I reached home early. Heh heh...Sorry oh no pix at the moment. Gila meh suddenly take pix? Later when I hv found my niche in desert house di, will put some pix in k.

Alrite, I hope this week will be an eye opener for me. And other things as well. Life's full of suprises...

Muaks muaks!

The Day Has Arrived & Happy Halloween!

Wah! The day finally came! Haha! Suprisingly I have no feelings toward it. Thought I blog about it before fresh new November steps in. Day went normal, as usual. Hot weather. Nearly fell asleep while waiting for my food during lunch together with Daosapau & Mei-J. Haha! Yes yes its the nickname I gave her. Such a wonderful gal and a cutie pie too. Gonna miss her and the rest as well. Heck it's not like I am going far away forever and not coming back!

Daosapau was busy reading the fairytale novel I loaned to her. So engrossed the cutie pau :P. And busy entertaining potential VO talents calling in. It's a pity she's working tomorrow. Poor pau. Well, we were supposed to go for a dinner-cum-farewell for me, unfortunately Mei-J, Sue & BahBah weren't free. That left me, Daosapau & Ah Hiao. Ah, might as well postponed it some other time as today's Friday and its pretty jam and what with Halloween! Gonna make it double jam! Gosh, I can't believe the day has finally arrived. Time just whizzed by so fast. Spent 2 days out of shoe house with Duck Boy. Nice boy. Kinda blur at times just like me. We are like two peas in a pod of clumsiness! Kakakakkaka! But don't let his looks deceive u hah. He's not THAT innocent btw. Hehe.

Oh I forgotten to get the nice coffee's art in our FOC Pick 'N Brew cups the other day from Daosapau. The moment, the pose - priceless. Hehe. Never mind. Shall get it from her one day if I remember. Oh oh oh...Ah Hiao came and met us last night for dinner. Ended up in Ming Tien foodcourt. That Ah Hiao intro us to a super duper hot Taiwanese sausage. OMG! I cannot described how super duper fiery hot the freaking sausage is! And Ah Hiao just sat there and laughed at me, BahBah and Daosapau - the aftermath; after each of us taking a small bite of the sausage! Cruel Ah Hiao :(.

The first victim was BahBah. He ordered a jumbo watermelon juice. Being "wai sek" he took a bite of everything that was ordered. Hence, not suprisingly, he took a small bite of the sausage. Imagined the steady flow of sweats on his face & neck. My! What a hilarious sight it was. All of us couldn't stopped laughing at his reaction. The jumbo juice was gone in a jiffy. Poor fella. And being Ah Hiao, laughed as usual. Bad Ah Hiao.

The next to followed suit was Daosapau. In the midst of it, Ah Hiao was reminding us over and over again that its best we take the bite after we have eaten whatever we have ordered. Being curious, Daosapau took a bite eventhough she seen the effects it had on BahBah. Poor pau. Not realizing that there were still some of the fiery stuff on her fingers, the poor pau went and rubbed her eyes. Thank goodness she didn't put on her contacts. I can imagined her contacts go on flame! Thus, the steady flow of tears...by that time, we really pitied pau because she was really uncomfortable, rubbing her eyes with tissues and wiping the water from the glasses. It took a good 15-20 minutes for her to be ok. Phew. Well, after a while, she kept taking small bites of the sausage. Haha.

Of course, who else took it after her, it was ME! After I took the first small bite, felt nothing for a mere 20 seconds. Yes they were counting! Then after that, gosh, I cannot described to you what's the feeling like! Try it for yourself and you'll feel the same thing as me. This is an unforgettable experience which I will remembered for the rest of my life. Hilarious, teary yet suffering at the same time. I practically dipped and rest my poor lips in the ice water that we ordered. My lips was on fire! I was also flowing with tears and feeling hot at the same time. Very hot indeed. Bad Ah Hiao laughed again, this time more louder. Cis. Even mentioned I don't need any blusher. Can use the sausage as my source. Cis Ah Hiao! Wow! It took me about 15 minutes just to cool my poor lips. Tummy felt hot later on. Oh what a pity I didn't take the sausage pix and our reactions after eating it. Never mind. This blog is worth writing. Hehe.

The last victim that took it was Mei-J. Smart. After witnessing the 3 victims, she tackled the sausage properly and correctly. This is also we forced her to eat it. Nothing hilarious came out from her as she's smart enough. Kekekeke! Only Ah Hiao did not take it eventhough we kept on pressing him to take it. His reason : "Eh, u all are better than me u know. My fren hor forced me to take a bigger bite than all of u all. After that, I felt like dying di. Drank drank drank! Lagi worse than u all u know! Ah, btw,this is a good way to diet ya. So if u all wanna diet, come here eat the sausage, share share, somemore can save money! U think everywhere oso can sell this sausage wan ah? Only here can find u know!" My my...the sausage's stall owner should be proud if he knew that Ah Hiao was promoting freely for his sausages. Not to forget! The evil glint in Ah Hiao's eyes, (though I can't see it in the dark but can felt it) plus the evil chuckle he gave to all of us while making his way to the sausage's stall. And I remembered the comment he made! "Heh heh heh...I will go buy the sausage now and u all will suffer...heh heh heh!" Bad Ah Hiao!

Whenever Ah Hiao join us, it will surely be fun fun fun and laughter. For he's a jolly good fella! Never a dull moment with Ah Hiao around, and of cours the rest of us too. So much fun. We been tru alot hah guys? Eventhough its a short stint together. This is definitely a bond that we have formed and I will cherish each and every one of us all - Ah Hiao, Daosapau, BahBah, Sue & Mei-J. We will have lots of time together in the future fill with fun and laughter and craps and good company...Love u guys and miss u guys!

Muaks muaks!

Just Another Day

Today made me reminiscence the true meaning of friendship, hence the long collection of good friendship quotes. It is very true, when in times of trouble, you look for a friend to stand by you and help you brave the dark and stormy weather, until you're able to see the sunshine again. I kinda felt nostalgic today. The mood was peaceful and stable. I had found some sorta inner peace last night. Somehow, the rain and ferocious thunder stopped and I could see some sunlight out of it. Well, soon the excursion will end in Butcher's house in a couple of days' time and I will once again, continue my new excursion...this time...its desert villa. Haha!

Daosapau is not in a very good mood towards the end of the day, as she was prepared to leave and submit all her proposals and looking forward to it too. Alas, the annoying Butcher has destroyed her plans! I have not seen 6pm meetings for some time already. Just so happened, Butcher decided to have it. It did not even starts at 6pm sharp. Daosapau, Butcher is well known to prolong and delay meetings even to the extend of postponing it! Probably make yourself half retarded so that you won't feel sick to the stomach.

Could imagined how a panic mother hen gathered all her chicks at one place, and then decided to change location at the very last minute. And suddenly realized its not gonna work, and finally send back all her chicks back to the house. Oh don't forget this mother hen has asked all her chicks to pack up all their stuff nicely, so with all the heaving and puffing, the chicks all gathered at 1 spot waiting for mother hen. Blah blah blah...except Butcher is throwing his meat all over messily. Eh, right now I am talking about mother hen + chicks...hahahaha...Don't feel so bad Daosapau. Know the fact it doesn't affect you as much as Cici + mike@mike here - past. And we gladly do not treat you as a chick neither as the mother hen's chick (as well as a piece of meat)! Talking about Butcher and his meat shop continuously made me sick and tired of it. Alright, it's time to S.T.O.P.!

I was just wondering why did people get into relationships and datings? Is it because life's too hectic to really find our other half and just because we found it, we jumped straight into it for fear of feeling lonely? Perhaps yes... Today, I had a chat with a friend. She was telling me all about her new excursion with a group of rich men. They will meet up often every week where they will chat, dine and drink. Sometimes it could at a friend's place or it could be out in those fancy dining joints. She has problem with her own relationship. She felt that the feelings has sizzled out with her other half. She kinda felt lonely and bored as she was used to being with her other half for some time already. So, when these group of rich men came into her life, she didn't hesitate to think twice and took upon the chance to meet and mingle with them.

Initially, it was just to kill time and loneliness. Over time, from the way she tell me things, I could somehow gauged that she's in the midst of settling for a better life instead of working for it, whereby the rich man that she's somehow so-called hook up with, will buy her whatever things that she wants. She admitted that she has feelings for the man. But at the same time, she doesn't know whether the man is a rebound or replacement. She's clearly enjoying the attention showered upon her by the rich man as she's no longer getting the attention that she wanted, craved for from her bf anymore.

Thus, her journey of entering into a rich man's world begin. Of course, as tempting as it could be and enjoying the world of wonderful, rich goodies that we cannot afford to buy, there's bound to be a catch somehow. Nothing is free in this world. I fear for her. She might be too caught up in that world that if so happen, one day, the rich man is gone and she could no longer depend on him, that's where the addiction starts. Sigh, this is something like you always catch it in the movies right? Somehow it does happen in reality as well. So i wish my friend all the best...silently.

Without companions, we're lonely yet it's a much simpler life to go tru. Of course, it would really be nice and wonderful to have someone there for you and go tru life's path together. With a companion (be it really companion or bf or gf), there are many obstacles to go tru. Sometimes we are heap with problems of the heart, sometimes not. Sometimes we are contend, sometimes we are not. At times, we really are some complicated creatures to understand. Sigh...well, clearly this are some thoughts to ponder upon eh?

Muaks muaks!

The True Meaning of Friendship

"Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they are meant to be there; they serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or help you figure out who you are."

"Through life we suffer. Through friends we never have to suffer alone"

"Friends let you know that you are not alone on the road of life."

"Friendship : Our greatest joy and our greatest sorrow . For without our most cherished friends our world is so often filled with sad tomorrows."

"We each take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other, everywhere."

"Friendship is the comfort that comes from knowing that even when you feel all alone, you aren't."

"People never know how special someone is until they leave, but maybe sometimes its important to leave, so they are given that chance to see how special that someone really is!"

"Friends never make assumptions about you. They never expect a reason to go out with you. In fact friends only expect you to be you!"

"When you have no light to guide you and no one to walk beside you, I will come to you. When the night is dark and stormy, you won't have to reach out for me, i will come to you."

"We all need somebody we can turn to, someone with no reason to stay. So if you fear that your sun is dying and you need the strength to keep trying, well i'll reach out and take your hand."

"True friends are the people who brighten your smile everytime your with them"

"The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile, nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone else believes in him and is willing to trust him with friendship."

"The best of friendships are the ones where two friends can sit on a swing, not saying a word, but walk away feeling like u just had the best conversation ever."

"People may not remember exactly what you did or what u said, but they will always remember how you made them feel."

"Friends are the roses of life: pick them carefully and avoid the thorns."

"Our paths may change as life goes along, but the bond between friends remains ever strong."

"I may never get the chance to win the lottery. I may never get the chance to go on vacation. But I have the chance to be your friend, that chance I'll take."

"Friends are like money in the bank, longer you keep them, the more they are worth."

"A friend is someone who smile when you smile, laugh when you laugh, but hold your hand when you cry."

"A friend is someone who listens when you speak, understands when you cry and guides you on your way."

"A friendship is like a gold chain..each link is a memory from past to present..never let the chain break or else the friendship will be gone..remember gold is a valuable as the friendship is"

"The only thing on this earth that will never die is a memory and in our friendship we have made so many."

"Friendship is that sheltering tree which covers you with warmth when you are cold with Sorrow, balms your soul when you are hurt in heart and bandages with love when you bleed inside!"

"Good friends come and good friends go, but only the best friends stick around forever."

Muaks muaks!

Life Goes On

I am going through a painful time right now. So far, only mike@mike and Daosapao are aware of it besides my family and his mom. Gawd…why did we ever have to go through all this when at the end things are not turning out fine and of what we wanted and expected? Its really hard when the heart is released and you know that it has been crushed and squashed all over. Its more harder to mend the heart back to its original being before it got all crushed up. Yes it will take some time but mending a crushed heart is not easy and once you mend it up, you’re afraid of getting it crush and squash again.

Well, for once, my blog is sad this time. My intentions of setting this blog up is to blog about good, nice and wonderful things around me and happening to me. But somehow tonight I felt sorrowful. I decided to blog whatever I have inside me and make me feel better. I am indeed a strong person but at times when things really upset me, I will crumbled and fall. When I get hold of myself and smack myself back to reality, I will pull myself up and fight it bit by bit.

Over this period of time, many things has happened what with the transition of the shoe house, chaos and politics happening in the shoe house, stupid stuff done by Butcher, taking a step further of leaving the shoe house, my favorite shoe laces – siilygui left, follow by mike@mike and now left Daosapao and BahBah. And now this painful chapter has erupted into my life. Of course, though it’s a short stint, nevertheless, feelings has grown, time and efforts has put in. To leave it, I am not willing to but decided this is a decision and not a choice that I really have to make and I don’t wanna have the people around me that I love and love me getting affected. I cannot be selfish to an extend of only thinking about myself. I also gotta pull myself back on track and most importantly, be happy again.

I realized I really need to get out of this rut asap. I cannot afford to pull myself down anymore. I have another new chapter in life in my new shoe house which I am looking forward to it. I believed the best is yet to come and I will not simply give my mending heart away anymore. Will guard it ferociously until I am very sure I will not get the heart crush and only will I allow it to grow and expand freely. Right now, I am not ready to trust another heart.

Ok give me some time. I will be back soon being the bubbly, clumsy and fun-loving CiCi. So in the middle of the night while blogging my sorrows away, strange enough I could feel a sense of inner peace and surprisingly, I don’t feel regretted that I called it quits myself. Even my momma said its good riddance, bad rubbish and not worth the trouble and time to be there for him. Even mike@mike said that. Even Daosapao said its his loss, not yours. I really wanna thanked you guys for being there for me in times of this painful period. I don’t need a crowd, you guys being there for me (including my momma) is good enough already. Truly appreciated. Don’t worry, CiCi will be back to her old self again. Give time and all’s well.

These are some few inspirational quotes (which help me feel better) that I came across and I wanna share it with you guys and when in times of troubles and stormy weather, you might find its good for the soul :

“Whether joy or sorrowful, the heart needs a double, because a joy shared is doubled and a pain that is shared is divided.”

“When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy. When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.”

“Understanding is the first step to acceptance, and only with acceptance can there be recovery”.

"The hardest thing you can do is smile when you are ill, in pain, or depressed. But this is no-cost remedy is necessary first half-step if you are to start on the road to recovery".

"Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow."

“You don't have to control your thoughts; you just have to stop letting them control you."

"It is better to light one small candle than to curse the darkness."

"Whenever someone sorrows, I do not say, "forget it," or "it will pass," or "it could be worse" -- all of which deny the integrity of the painful experience. But I say, to the contrary, "It is worse than you may allow yourself to think. Delve into the depth. Stay with the feeling. Think of it as a precious source of knowledge and guidance. Then and only then will you be ready to face it and be transformed in the process."

"Many of us spend our whole lives running from feeling with the mistaken belief that you cannot bear the pain. But you have already borne the pain. What you have not done is feel all you are beyond that pain."

"Take the first step, no more, no less, and the next will be revealed."

“After all these years, I am still involved in the process of self-discovery. It's better to explore life and make mistakes than to play it safe. Mistakes are part of the dues one pays for a full life."

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."

Muaks muaks!