Friday, November 14, 2008
Antique Shop
Monday, November 3, 2008
1st Day @ Desert House
Friday, October 31, 2008
The Day Has Arrived & Happy Halloween!
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Just Another Day
Daosapau is not in a very good mood towards the end of the day, as she was prepared to leave and submit all her proposals and looking forward to it too. Alas, the annoying Butcher has destroyed her plans! I have not seen 6pm meetings for some time already. Just so happened, Butcher decided to have it. It did not even starts at 6pm sharp. Daosapau, Butcher is well known to prolong and delay meetings even to the extend of postponing it! Probably make yourself half retarded so that you won't feel sick to the stomach.
Could imagined how a panic mother hen gathered all her chicks at one place, and then decided to change location at the very last minute. And suddenly realized its not gonna work, and finally send back all her chicks back to the house. Oh don't forget this mother hen has asked all her chicks to pack up all their stuff nicely, so with all the heaving and puffing, the chicks all gathered at 1 spot waiting for mother hen. Blah blah blah...except Butcher is throwing his meat all over messily. Eh, right now I am talking about mother hen + chicks...hahahaha...Don't feel so bad Daosapau. Know the fact it doesn't affect you as much as Cici + mike@mike here - past. And we gladly do not treat you as a chick neither as the mother hen's chick (as well as a piece of meat)! Talking about Butcher and his meat shop continuously made me sick and tired of it. Alright, it's time to S.T.O.P.!
I was just wondering why did people get into relationships and datings? Is it because life's too hectic to really find our other half and just because we found it, we jumped straight into it for fear of feeling lonely? Perhaps yes... Today, I had a chat with a friend. She was telling me all about her new excursion with a group of rich men. They will meet up often every week where they will chat, dine and drink. Sometimes it could at a friend's place or it could be out in those fancy dining joints. She has problem with her own relationship. She felt that the feelings has sizzled out with her other half. She kinda felt lonely and bored as she was used to being with her other half for some time already. So, when these group of rich men came into her life, she didn't hesitate to think twice and took upon the chance to meet and mingle with them.
Initially, it was just to kill time and loneliness. Over time, from the way she tell me things, I could somehow gauged that she's in the midst of settling for a better life instead of working for it, whereby the rich man that she's somehow so-called hook up with, will buy her whatever things that she wants. She admitted that she has feelings for the man. But at the same time, she doesn't know whether the man is a rebound or replacement. She's clearly enjoying the attention showered upon her by the rich man as she's no longer getting the attention that she wanted, craved for from her bf anymore.
Thus, her journey of entering into a rich man's world begin. Of course, as tempting as it could be and enjoying the world of wonderful, rich goodies that we cannot afford to buy, there's bound to be a catch somehow. Nothing is free in this world. I fear for her. She might be too caught up in that world that if so happen, one day, the rich man is gone and she could no longer depend on him, that's where the addiction starts. Sigh, this is something like you always catch it in the movies right? Somehow it does happen in reality as well. So i wish my friend all the best...silently.
Without companions, we're lonely yet it's a much simpler life to go tru. Of course, it would really be nice and wonderful to have someone there for you and go tru life's path together. With a companion (be it really companion or bf or gf), there are many obstacles to go tru. Sometimes we are heap with problems of the heart, sometimes not. Sometimes we are contend, sometimes we are not. At times, we really are some complicated creatures to understand. Sigh...well, clearly this are some thoughts to ponder upon eh?
Muaks muaks!
The True Meaning of Friendship
"We each take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other, everywhere."
"Friendship is the comfort that comes from knowing that even when you feel all alone, you aren't."
"People never know how special someone is until they leave, but maybe sometimes its important to leave, so they are given that chance to see how special that someone really is!"
"Friends never make assumptions about you. They never expect a reason to go out with you. In fact friends only expect you to be you!"
"When you have no light to guide you and no one to walk beside you, I will come to you. When the night is dark and stormy, you won't have to reach out for me, i will come to you."
"We all need somebody we can turn to, someone with no reason to stay. So if you fear that your sun is dying and you need the strength to keep trying, well i'll reach out and take your hand."
"True friends are the people who brighten your smile everytime your with them"
"The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile, nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone else believes in him and is willing to trust him with friendship."
"The best of friendships are the ones where two friends can sit on a swing, not saying a word, but walk away feeling like u just had the best conversation ever."
"People may not remember exactly what you did or what u said, but they will always remember how you made them feel."
"Friends are the roses of life: pick them carefully and avoid the thorns."
"Our paths may change as life goes along, but the bond between friends remains ever strong."
"I may never get the chance to win the lottery. I may never get the chance to go on vacation. But I have the chance to be your friend, that chance I'll take."
"Friends are like money in the bank, longer you keep them, the more they are worth."
"A friend is someone who smile when you smile, laugh when you laugh, but hold your hand when you cry."
"A friend is someone who listens when you speak, understands when you cry and guides you on your way."
"A friendship is like a gold chain..each link is a memory from past to present..never let the chain break or else the friendship will be gone..remember gold is a valuable as the friendship is"
"The only thing on this earth that will never die is a memory and in our friendship we have made so many."
"Friendship is that sheltering tree which covers you with warmth when you are cold with Sorrow, balms your soul when you are hurt in heart and bandages with love when you bleed inside!"
"Good friends come and good friends go, but only the best friends stick around forever."
Muaks muaks!
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Life Goes On
Well, for once, my blog is sad this time. My intentions of setting this blog up is to blog about good, nice and wonderful things around me and happening to me. But somehow tonight I felt sorrowful. I decided to blog whatever I have inside me and make me feel better. I am indeed a strong person but at times when things really upset me, I will crumbled and fall. When I get hold of myself and smack myself back to reality, I will pull myself up and fight it bit by bit.
Over this period of time, many things has happened what with the transition of the shoe house, chaos and politics happening in the shoe house, stupid stuff done by Butcher, taking a step further of leaving the shoe house, my favorite shoe laces – siilygui left, follow by mike@mike and now left Daosapao and BahBah. And now this painful chapter has erupted into my life. Of course, though it’s a short stint, nevertheless, feelings has grown, time and efforts has put in. To leave it, I am not willing to but decided this is a decision and not a choice that I really have to make and I don’t wanna have the people around me that I love and love me getting affected. I cannot be selfish to an extend of only thinking about myself. I also gotta pull myself back on track and most importantly, be happy again.
I realized I really need to get out of this rut asap. I cannot afford to pull myself down anymore. I have another new chapter in life in my new shoe house which I am looking forward to it. I believed the best is yet to come and I will not simply give my mending heart away anymore. Will guard it ferociously until I am very sure I will not get the heart crush and only will I allow it to grow and expand freely. Right now, I am not ready to trust another heart.
Ok give me some time. I will be back soon being the bubbly, clumsy and fun-loving CiCi. So in the middle of the night while blogging my sorrows away, strange enough I could feel a sense of inner peace and surprisingly, I don’t feel regretted that I called it quits myself. Even my momma said its good riddance, bad rubbish and not worth the trouble and time to be there for him. Even mike@mike said that. Even Daosapao said its his loss, not yours. I really wanna thanked you guys for being there for me in times of this painful period. I don’t need a crowd, you guys being there for me (including my momma) is good enough already. Truly appreciated. Don’t worry, CiCi will be back to her old self again. Give time and all’s well.
These are some few inspirational quotes (which help me feel better) that I came across and I wanna share it with you guys and when in times of troubles and stormy weather, you might find its good for the soul :
“Whether joy or sorrowful, the heart needs a double, because a joy shared is doubled and a pain that is shared is divided.”
“When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy. When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.”
“Understanding is the first step to acceptance, and only with acceptance can there be recovery”.
"Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow."
“You don't have to control your thoughts; you just have to stop letting them control you."
"It is better to light one small candle than to curse the darkness."
"Whenever someone sorrows, I do not say, "forget it," or "it will pass," or "it could be worse" -- all of which deny the integrity of the painful experience. But I say, to the contrary, "It is worse than you may allow yourself to think. Delve into the depth. Stay with the feeling. Think of it as a precious source of knowledge and guidance. Then and only then will you be ready to face it and be transformed in the process."
"Many of us spend our whole lives running from feeling with the mistaken belief that you cannot bear the pain. But you have already borne the pain. What you have not done is feel all you are beyond that pain."
"Take the first step, no more, no less, and the next will be revealed."
“After all these years, I am still involved in the process of self-discovery. It's better to explore life and make mistakes than to play it safe. Mistakes are part of the dues one pays for a full life."
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."
Muaks muaks!
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Finally!
Well news travel real fast. I guessed everyone in the shoe house already knew. I haven’t been to shoe house B yet and see how’s the revamping like. Maybe one of these days I will pop by. Today is my 1st day in shoe house D, considering the weird fact that I am going off soon. Haha. Err, not really used to it at first because I sorta got used to the tranquility and peace and graveyard-like in shoe house B. Did mentioned to Daosapau. She said here will be more noisier. Well, at least there are more people around and they do talk to me unlike in the other shoe house, where if BahBah & Rachel are there, then we will talk. Otherwise, once in a blue moon, I will have a short chat with Mr Weirdo. But forget about me striking a conversation with bugger. Uggh…
More females here already. Shoe house B is 100% occupied by males now! Haha! The monkeys will roam freely…but still chained up :P. Here, still do my own things. No one disturb but unfortunately I am not in the same room as Daosapau. So I am kinda like feeling “naked” and exposed as people will walk by and po pek po pek with me and can really check out what the hell I am doing u know. Hehe…not used to it at first but now getting used to it already. Uh, fark lah. Don’t bother anyway. This is what’s happening these few days…
Er..oh yeah I also went to Daosapau’s dad’s shop to check my eyes and get contacts. BahBah also went. That BahBah is also like Ah Hiao. So fussy and hiao. He may look simple, but deep down he is very hiao. Of course, Ah Hiao topped the Grand Prize. No one can beat Ah Hiao! “No…this one I don’t like…yuck…eeyer…no way…I want modern designs…no no, this looked too old fashion…” These are some of the comments and feedback given by Bahbah to Daosapau when she tried her best to proposed some designs to him. Sigh…male vanity. Do indeed exist…Sigh…:P.
Whereas for me, it was kinda like a traumatic experience for me as I have to endured the fear of putting contacts into my eyes after so many years. Jittery, nervous, felt like peeing, hehe. But Daosapau was really nice and patient with me. I was so scared till I felt like shitting in my pants already. Because once upon a time, I had problem taking out the contacts and it broke halfway into my eye. Then it got me freaked out over contact lenses ever since. So I braved myself and tried over and over again despite the fears creeping in. Nevertheless, Daosapau was by my side and I was so grateful…muaks!
Finally I tried on brown, grey and black. At the end, I chose brown to match my recent colored hair. Hehe. Tried on gray looked kinda ok but not comfy with it. Took black made it look bigger but nothing outstanding. Hence, the brown. Ooo I can’t wait to get hold of it on Friday from Daosapau. Will definitely put the pix in when I got hold of it soon. But erm at the same time fearing of wearing it. Well, I supposed its normal and just takes time. Alrite, gotta go, gotta go. Bubbye.
Muaks muaks!
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Happenings of the day
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
CiCi's Fav Song
CiCi's Excursion
Muaks muaks!
CiCi's 1st Attempt
After the shoes were given, things seemed kinda mundane and it really take a lot of my will power and discipline to stay put in the shoe house. As the current shoes are nearing to the end of their excursion, let’s just say, the shoe house is finally completed with pieces of puzzles not formed formerly. Oh, its really exciting having formed up the puzzles from Day 1 till now. I think the cookies’ gang will know what I’m referring to. Could say it’s a scam but not legally really a scam though. But seriously it doesn’t matter anymore. I just pity the new owners that will look after the shoe house though…!
Oh boy! Oh boy! Oh boy! VogueMikey is leaving soon. I so miss him. Many years struggling in other shoe houses, he’s the 3rd shoe lace that I will miss. Hehe. The 1st and 2nd shoe lace were from my previous shoe house. Oh gawd…why am I labeling shoes, shoe house, shoe lace…I think my affinity are with shoes. I have a thing with shoes…Of course I will miss DaoSaPau. She’s kinda quirky at times but she’s sensible and down to earth person. Sorry DaoSaPau! I can’t find the rite word to describe you but quirky seemed a good word for you :P. Hehe! I cannot contemplate another suitable word for you yeh babe! :P
The shoe laces will definitely bring me lotsa fond memories. I do miss all the shoe laces that I have bonded with. Mmm..think that’s enough for my 1st attempt eh? Will blog when the mood’s there.
Muaks muaks!